Look folks if you want to comment, comment. If you want to try to make me feel worse than I all ready do, you will be told that your comments are not welcome. If you have some thing constructive to say by all means spit it out. I will be grateful. Vitriolic comments are not going to be tolerated. If any one wants to see how they should comment please go to the mission statement. I know that some may think, well you said be honest. Yes I did but I also said to make sure that you take the other person’s feelings into consideration when you are being honest. I need guidance not condemnation, I do enough of that on my own. I also would like to see some prayer here. I have seen none yet.
Please try not to take what I write here and twist it around to mean some thing that it does not say. I was really hurting the other day and I had to get out what I had to get out. That is over and now it is time to start doing the moral inventory. I am going to take a very hard look at myself and see those things that are not right in me and put some of them out here. I will be putting some of them out only to the L.O. but I will be doing this. It is a life long process that I must start before I can begin the recovery process.
If you have read the recent previous posts you will see that I have been trying to ask some questions that will bring some of these things out into the light. I really want to get this right. I have a life to save. Mine.
To my Lovely One, I love you still and I know that I have hurt you in some very bad ways. I am willing to do what ever it takes to save myself and you from this terrible sin. I am still reading the twelve step book and I am working it every day. I am bouncing my eyes away from the women who are around. I am almost afraid to look at women for fear of looking at the wrong places. I hope you will go the distance with me. I really think that it can be worth the price of the hell we will go through.
A Real (finally hopefull) Man
