Yes it is!!

I have noticed that when searching for my BLOG some one several times has found me by asking the question, “Is pornography adultery?”  My answer used to be no.  Now it is not.  My addiction caused me to see things wrong, very very wrong.  I was blind, willfully blind to the fact that porn is a substitute for healthy sexual relations with your spouse and a very poor substitute it is.  Pornography will draw you into a web of sexual gratification that is very seductive.  It will make you think that you are the greatest lover in the world and that the orgasms you have are the best ever.  It is all a lie.

Your mind is put into the fantasy world where nothing is real and nothing is as good as you think it is.  The orgasm that you have leaves you very unsatisfied.  You may like the feeling of having it but there is no intimacy afterward.  There is no one to hold and no one to share a moment of afterglow with.  There is nothing but a vast emptiness that you are now desperate to fill with anything that you can find.  This lead me into more and more sexual “partners” in that I wanted to watch not just one on one but multiple partner sexual encounters such as two of one sex and one of another.  This graduated into orgies with more and more people. 

This eventually would have lead me into violent sexual images I am sure.  Thank God that did not happen.  This also took me to other places during my sexual relations with my wife.  Not into some areas but I thought about some of the things I had seen when we were together.  Some times this was to heighten the excitement and other times I could not orgasm myself without recalling those images.  Now I am trying desperately to purge my mind of these things.  I have made the decision to do this and I am renewing my mind with the Word of God. 

Make no mistake, porn is EVIL.  There is no other description that will fit.  Pure unadulterated EVIL.  It will lead you to do things that you never thought in your wildest imagination that you would do.  Depravity is its offspring, empty hearts and homes are its legacy.  Broken homes and broken marriages are it left in is wake. 

Porn takes many forms, not only movies and pictures.  There are erotic stories, strip clubs, scantily clad pictures of women in all sorts of magazines such as “Stuff” and even sports illustrated with their annual swimsuit edition.  In that magazine there are women who are only clad in paint, nothing else.  There are images of elicit sex on EVERY soap opera on TV.  Why are women attracted to them when they are repelled by the very THOUGHT of a husband committing adultery on them?  I think that women feel the people on the screen in all of their pain an suffering or lack thereof are inoculating them from the danger of those things.  There is no painless sin ladies and gentlemen.  All sin causes pain.

There are also things coming out of Hollywood that are just as vile and celebrated as “Best Picture” when they only deserve to be burned.  I have seen adultery in my home on the TV so many times that I have lost count.  Where did these images of adultery come from?  Some from the satellite or cable and others from movies I allowed into my home through DVD’S.  These are the things that were allowed so that I could have “peace” in my home. 

What were the results?  A thoroughly and completely addicted man.  Oh the images on the DVD’S were tame compared to what I had seen out there in the porno houses but they were just as evil as those that were explicit.  Would you like a few examples of elicit sex scenes?  Here are a few: “Maid in Manhatten,” Any James Bond movie, “Mr. and Mrs. Smith,” Any movie with Angelina Jolie in it with the exception of “The Bone Collector.”  Doc Hollywood, is another.  Some of these movies only have upper body or full frontal nudity or a full naked back with only the suggestion of sex.  Some of these are a bit old but I have no modern movies in my possession at this time.  I do however have a movie that many of you may know and you may even like, “Going My Way,” as well as “White Christmas,” both with Bing Crosby.

Those movies are very old but they remind me of a time when I was innocent and clean.  I would give almost anything to feel that way all of the time again.  I only feel that way when I am watching movies like that or listening to Bing’s Christmas music.  I feel dirty all of the time now even coming out of the shower.  I can never be clean again until I stand in heaven before the great God and make an account for my life.  Only when Jesus steps up to the judges bench and tells the Father that I have had the penalty paid for by Him can I ever be clean again.

A Real (filthy) Man